I mentioned being at a crossroad in an earlier post and I did make a decision.  I did not take the route that would have led me down a path of self loathing and despair.  I made my choice.

Jobs are not easy to come by here, at least not for me and my surname.  =)  Small town family politics is such a bitch sometimes but it is the reality that I live with each and every day.

Reality is like that though, you have things that you live with and then you have things that you live for.

I have been home all week with my son who will be 9 months old as of the 15th of June.  At the end of the month, our oldest will turn 14 years old.  14!!  My goodness, time did kinda get away from me there a second.  I guess that is what I have on my mind today.

I really haven’t felt like writing much this past week as I struggled with the aforementioned crossroad but now that I have made my decision, I think I can free up some cognitive energies to do what I would rather do and that is, write.

I guess this could be another course for me to take with this blog but I don’t want to tie myself down again so I will just write and post things under the categories I do have.  Perhaps I will make more categories like the one I have in mind today.  Getting old.  =)

Then again, seeing as I will only be 40 years old come September, I can’t say for certain that being 40 or NIAC or Jules’ age (they are older than I am kik), I can’t say for certain that being in my 40’s is old.  The old nugget of age being relative comes to mind once again and in the eyes of my grandmother, I am still a kid but in the eyes of my 11 year old,  I am old.

Regardless of where I am in my Life Cycle, I do not want to have my chronological age define who I am and by that I mean I do not want to adhere to any “societal norm” as to what a person of my age should be doing.  I guess by that I mean I do not see myself giving up my gaming habit any time soon.  I might have to get used to the day shift though.

It is weird having to get used to television again.  By that I mean not middle of the night tv and having to get used to morning television.  Luckily I have my almost 9 month old that I can share this time with and we have been watching Mickey Mouse, Rollie Pollie Ollie and Loonette The Clown (of The Big Comfy Couch).  He is on a sleeping schedule where he is up before or around 8 AM and is up for 3 hours before taking a nap.

Those half hour to an hour naps will give me a little time to go online or get in a few songs in Rockband 2.  He is taking his nap right now and will wake up when his brother and Mom get home for lunch and then stay up for another 3 hours.  He does not take another nap until after dinner and then it is only a power nap (takes after his Dad I guess) and before we know it, it is time to go to bed in the evening.

So while it might feel like I in a doldrum, I might have actually been cruising and it was so comfortable that it felt like I wasn’t moving at all but I am.  My son reminds me of that with every smile and OH YEAH!! the other day he put two syllables together for me, I was so proud and happy.  “Da-da”.  =D

I know that my wife is happy to be doing something that she enjoys.  The job she got called in for was a week is one she enjoys becasuse it gives her the opportunity to help out the Elders of our Community.  I am hoping she gets the job for a year since it is one of those jobs that are on a cyclical-give-everyone-a-chance-to-work seasonal local jobs.  We find out hopefully by Monday.  I already mentioned to her that if she doesn’t get it not to be bothered by it if a ‘family member’ is hired.  I get tired of that shit but it happens.

Well my son and wife are home for lunch so I am posting this now.  enjoy your Thursday WP Bloggers and hello to those who read this regularly, you guys rock like Jules.  Oh I nearly forget to mention this but Jr. stood up on his own for a solid two seconds befre he realized he wasn’t holding on to anything.  =)  He will be walking before we know it.